Sometimes i wanna bang my head against the wall.It is 100% my fault for the investments i make in this life and i can't do anything else except learn from the good or bad ones.

I found myself walking the streets of berkeley till 2am tonight kicking fallen leaves around feeling this horrible feeling in my gut that most might go thru in thier lives.I felt that all too familiar emptiness surrounded by all these drunk & happy college kids and i hated it.I am very thankfull for the small amount of folks out there that actually make me feel wanted when they call me and want me to be a part of something but, still it's so hard being happy.

This is really gonna take a long time.

-j